Again I find I haven't blogged for a while, this midlife unravelling has left me with little concrete to say. I've been searching for things that feel true to me and not things I have picked up along the way that helped me feel like I fitted in, felt safe or look good. I can … Continue reading We’re just not all wired the same
It's been 18 months since I found that I was being made redundant from a job I loved, and man it has been a journey. My first response was deep and utter despair. How was I going to find another job? This was the end of the world. I pulled out my trusty CBT Diary app … Continue reading You can manifest what you want – but only when the universe agrees
*lightbulb moment* It's just dawned on me why I don't get on with solo meditation... it feels like forced peace. I've just come out for my lunchtime walk and I'm sat in a quiet corner in the park. I have my salad, my journal, birds singing, flowers blooming, the wind in the trees, sun shining … Continue reading Meditation – a lightbulb moment..
I am told this so many times in my life, along with "you're too sensitive" and "you worry too much". Just the other day I posted in a Facebook SAD support group about how I was feeling really low, reaching out for some support. I was upset to see people "liking" my post, especially now … Continue reading You’re over thinking this… or are you?
One of the common themes through many of the spiritual and religious texts is the idea of forgiveness. The Christians talk about turning the other cheek and New Age and self development leaders have turned into some sacred rite of passage. They teach that only when we forgive those that hurt us can we be … Continue reading On forgiveness…
It's been a long time since I last blogged, but that doesn't mean things have been quiet here at Crystaloak. In 2014 I decided the push really hard with my healing work and try to get more clients. Having a full time job and running a household makes it difficult to fit client bookings in, … Continue reading Slowly coming back to centre
I was doing the dishes this morning and I could see my husband was watching what I think was When We Were Soldiers on Netflix. This is a film about the battle of Ia Drang in Vietnam in 1965. It was the closing scenes showing a helicopter flying over the battlefield with all guns blazing. Men were being … Continue reading We really are making progress
I'm sitting here on Polzeath beach; the one place where Spirit is so loud I cannot fail to hear It. This year I have been working through the challenge of Self Worth and now Spirit gives me the next piece of the puzzle. You see when you've lived with emotional abuse, either through (in my … Continue reading Who gives you your worth?
In the metaphysical communities we are taught to use shielding to protect ourselves from the energies around us. We are told that as we start our journey into deeper realms we will meet energies that are dangerous and harmful or that we will become affected by the energies of other people, some of whom are … Continue reading To shield or not to shield?
I am aware that I haven't blogged for months and firstly I wanted to check in and update on why this is but I also wanted to share some insight I have just gained. In the back end of 2015 I realised I needed to face up to some stuff that I had been avoiding … Continue reading What if……